Heal Thyself

Yesterday was fairly up and down. IOP was hard because we talked about relationships and interpersonal effectiveness and I am learning that I am not necessarily a very interpersonally effective person.which I guess I already know since I am a classic avoider and isolator sp . I really just don t like to be around people and I can fake it to a certain extent and there are people that I m comfortable being around but it s a small group. I do think the skills I am learning are going to help me in the relationships I have now and maybe make me braver to try new ones. I came home after IOP and took a nap. That s pretty much my M.O. now.I just feel so drained and tired afterward and am probably looking for a bit of escape. That and I didn t sleep very well the night before. I only slept for two hours though and then Curly Snap came over. We visited for about an hour and she caught me up on all the office drama. I also called my supervisor while she was there to tell her I would ge! t all my end of the month stuff in to her today which of course I don t have all finished yet. I do have the stuff done that she needs by noon today though and I am thinking about dropping it in her mailbox on my way to IOP so that Curly Snap doesn t have to keep swinging by. I know she doesn t mind but it has to be in by noon and I m not sure her schedule will allow her to do that on such short notice and I will be in the bigger city until noon then have a dentist s appointment at . I talked to Dad this morning and he is going to let me borrow a couple of CD s from his massive collection. I asked for The Nields and The Curious George soundtrack. They are both mellow and kind of happy. I am trying to find more music that makes me feel good and at peace for my self soothing exercises. A suggestion from group yesterday was checking out a Canadian artist who goes by Feist. I bookmarked most of her You Tube pages and would recommend checking her out. Went to Mom s last night ag! ain for a fish fry. Nothing better than hush puppies fried crappie coleslaw and homemade french fries. To my surprise all the grease didn t make me sick and it was nice to indulge myself a little bit. I did get into a little bit about Mom and her her incorrect use of the word boundaries but we got it all settled and I sent her an email this morning on the difference between boundaries and overpersonalization. Sometimes it is nice to be able to argue with someone and not end up having them be mad at you. Mom is pretty understanding. It has been suggested that I develop some interests but I am just not sure where to start. I live my life so much from day to day that it s like I can t concentrate on finding something I really love doing other than blogging talking on the phone and playing with my dog. My guess is that when spring summer really gets here I will be pretty active in my yard. I do like keeping my yard looking nice even when I don t feel my best. I even have some flowers to plant that I need to pick up at Mom s. So I ll be using my op! posite to emotion skills today.doing something productive or helpful even though my emotions tell me I don t want to. Definitely something I need to work on. For a change I d like to share a happy song because my guess is that more than one person who reads my blog could use a little cheering up Feist Posted in Daily Family Neuroticism Tagged anxiety Bipolar DBT depression dialectical behavior therapy Feist music PTSD self soothing trauma No Comments Trackback URI Comments RSS Leave a Reply Name Mail will not be published Website XHTML You can use these tags Recent Posts SootheThyself See Reverse ForDirections While the WorldSleeps HumanAgain Throwing Dried Beans atAnxiety Blogroll Common Ties Dooce Mystery O Riley Social Neuroscience Archives April March February January Category Cloud Daily Family Health Kizz Malcom Neuroticism Working with the Crazies Tags ADA anxiety basketball Bipolar cairnterriers cleaning conflict dads DavidGray DBT depression dialecticalbehaviorther! apy disability dogs employment Family forgiveness grief guilt healthinsurance hospitalization impulsecontrol JamesBlunt Josefin sWaltz legaldrugs lifestylechanges love mindfulness music nightmares OCD peanutbutter politics PTSD quitsmoking sexyfat sleep therapy trauma Vassen vodka vomit weather weightloss WTF Blog at WordPress.com . Theme Mistylook by Sadish

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